Friday, 26 December 2008

The meaning of life is between Zero & One…

Computers work on the basis of “On” & “Off” a switch where you chose “On” to be 1 and “Off” to be 0. So you can count in what we call binary and replicate our written numbers.

Easy? Yes.

Well No actually because we are simplifying the state between Zero and One.

We can divide between numbers to create steps that we call fractions or decimals but the same problem occurs.

Stop and think when is Zero an absolute?

OK we can measure temperature and define an absolute zero as a point when everything freezes but how do we measure absolute mathematical zero?

And does it exist?

At the other end of the scale we say that numbers go to on to Infinity but that has a flaw in that we have not established Zero in the first place. I always smiled at University when the lecturer wrote a complex mathematical equation that was valid from Zero to Infinity.

Better still is a mathematical proof that is valid from Infinity to Infinity. Now that can really get your brain turning over.

Try True and False on the same basis.

You have to come back to defining Zero and One and deciding on the probability of it being nearer Zero or One to decide between one state and another.

But what if Zero doesn’t exist?

What differentiates mankind from machines is that we can recognise the limitations and the absurdity of a simplistic Zero and One state and it is that difference that defines life.

So when I say that Male and Female are not absolute states then I know there is no scientific proof that can dismiss this truth.

Yesterday On Christmas day I had a long telephone conversation with one of my true transsexual heroines. She rang me, which was a surprise as she is an atheist and also a Marxist compared to me being a Christian and an Anarchist.

The reality is we have an awful lot in common because both of us live in the world between Zero and One and understand that we do.

So next time you think in absolute terms about Sex, Gender, Sexuality, Nature or Nurture or any other matter remember the answer is not a tick box True or False, Yes or No or even “Prefer Not to Say” it’s all a lot more complex than that

And that is the beauty and meaning of life itself…

Tuesday, 23 December 2008

Watch out there’s a Nazi about…

In this season of goodwill it is important for Catholics to be reminded that this goodwill only applies to heterosexual males and females.

The Nazi in a skirt (sorry robes) has just reminded his faithful that saving humanity from homosexual or transsexual behaviour was as important as protecting the environment.

The former enthusiastic member of the Hitler Youth now known as Pope Benedict said it was not "out-of-date metaphysics" to "speak of human nature as 'man' or woman'", he said. It came from the "language of creation, despising which would mean self-destruction for humans".

Gender theories, he said, led to man's "auto-emancipation" from creation and Creator.

I suppose this is a slight improvement on the former Catholic Church views that the world is flat or that all the heavenly bodies resolve around the Earth but it is still a stunning example of religious bigotry ignoring science.

I find it incredible that this man can claim to be a Christian and spout such garbage and I say that as Christian.

Jesus Christ was no Nazi believing in the purity and superiority of a single race or group but the Catholic Church developed to enhance the power of the state over the individual has plenty in common with Nazism. But then history teaches us that, well the bits they’ve not spun into myths to protect their good name.

Creation was not as simple as male and female obviously with the superior male and the wife as a possession. Our muslim friends also need a strong reminder of that fact.

Evolution and the concept of God are not conflicts just a test of your ability to reason and deduce based on repeatable measurement. As a scientist you ignore the aspect of faith at your peril and without faith then some measurable results are meaningless. Whether you believe faith equals God is down to your interpretation of Relativity.

To define sex or gender as binary is a direct conflict with the evidence of the Laws of Nature.

The Pope is at best a fool at worse an unreformed Nazi…

Maggie Fiona Fox was baptised by total immersion at the age of18 but no longer subscribes to any organised chapel or church.

Sunday, 21 December 2008

Some images from 2008

As I hope not an unreasonable word-smith I have always believed the written word to be all powerful though perhaps I may be assuming the arrogance of education.

Anyway these images meant something to me in 2008 and I'll start with Merry Christmas.

I like that image as the Penguins look like they are about to escape the Santa suits.

I'm not a big one for keeping animals in captivity or training them as circus performers but the expression on this Walrus is a classic. I'm sure my hero the late great John Lennon would have approved Goo Goo A Choo!

This is what I consider the scariest picture of 2008 showing a muslim lady suicide bomber. It has a certain irony as she uses the technology of the infidel she so misunderstands. She is blind to the control and manipulation of men that brought her to this stage.

2008 was a year of change for me moving at last to Manchester I had no hesitation in moving as this is the view from my living room window.

Give me your tired, your poor,
Your huddled transsexuals yearning to breathe free,
The wretched refuse of your bigoted towns.
Send these, the homeless, tempest-tossed to me,
I lift my lamp beside the golden door!"

Thank you Manchester.

Apologies to Emma Lazarus.

I'll close this post with one of the most iconic images of all time, the one that inspired me to become an engineer 2009 will be the 150th anniversary of his passing. I think the picture is so cool even now with hands in pocket, dirt on shoes and an expression that says it all in terms of directing others. Genius never dies.

Isambard Kingdom Brunel (1806 - 1859)

Wednesday, 17 December 2008

Some Progress…

In a recent email from my GP the PCT stated:

“We wrote to South Staffordshire PCT last week and are awaiting a response from them due to the timescale of them agreeing funding and Ms. Fox transferring over the NHS Manchester.”

I asked my GP to get an explanation of this and today I got a response:

We have asked South Staffs PCT if they would be willing to honour their agreement to fund this request given that they only agreed to do so very recently. If not, and given the circumstances the request would be reviewed within our Effective Use of Resources process.

I’ll translate that for you:

It means that Manchester PCT are not disputing the authorisation of my surgery at Sussex Nuffield just who should pay.

If South Staffordshire PCT says we’re not paying to Manchester PCT then the issue becomes one of cost effectiveness.

This shows that we have overwhelming legal arguments in terms of provision of surgery and choice. We can also very simply show that the add on cost of Charring Cross GIC process is more expensive. Cost an unknown number of visits to two psychiatrists at the GIC compared to a one-hour session (with the former head of Charring Cross) to establish informed consent. Lets see our method £160 theirs £ thousands. Not really a contest is it?

I’m not breaking out the champagne yet but I will be in the New Year!

I’m not stopping my campaign though with my personal victory and I won’t rest until in Manchester at least we have a science based non-psychiatric approach to changing sex in place.

I didn’t run away from the issues of South Staffordshire I just made certain it didn’t cost me my life. If South Staffordshire PCT has any morals they will pay the bill but some members of the PCT there showed little other than extreme bigotry in the past.

Now on the subject of money I’ve had my GP confirm that she’s returned the report in support of my claim for Disability Living Allowance (DLA) and I had a call from a nice lady at the Benefits Office saying I’d receive a decision by the end of February.

This non means tested financial support would help me enormously as I try to rebuild my life after the damage done in Uttoxeter. I want to work but reluctantly accept that for the time being that’s not easily achieved but I am determined to do something even with the added complication of recovering from major surgery.

Once the residual stress is out of the way then I know I can still play a useful role in society, I have a lot of skills and expert knowledge in many areas to offer an employer than can see past the unholy trinity of sex, disability and age discrimination.

I’m pleased to say that the respite from the core pain of Ankylosing Spondylitis continues with the antibiotics though my shoulders still give me discomfort. A friend of mine asked if I was worried this remission would affect my DLA claim but the answer is no as Ankylosing Spondylitis damage cannot be undone and it is the permanent disability that the claim is based on.

So I think I’d better thank my guardian Angel for looking after me again. It just goes to show that my belief in love, truth and justice is not misplaced though it’s often tested to its limit.

I’ve always believed two simple truths that God is Love and that the Kingdom of God is within you. As we approach Christmas I hope people realise that it is not the celebration of material worth that counts it is the celebration of the triumph of good over evil that matters.

It is up to all of us not to just to limit our activities to that which helps ourselves but to help others whenever we can.

Enjoy your build up to Christmas and do one little thing for someone else…

Oh this was the sign I got of friends in high places LOL

Tuesday, 16 December 2008

Side effects that I might want…

Woke up yesterday doing a good impression of a hamster with food in its mouth pouch. My right jaw had swollen badly. It wasn’t a complete surprise as that’s where I need a crowned tooth extracted and the Consultant at the Dental hospital had probed it.

It has happened before and liberal applications of t-tree oil had sorted it so I wasn’t that concerned. I had planned to chase my dentist up over the provision of a false tooth and managed to get a cancelled appointment with another dentist at the practice as mine is off sick.

I got well told off about the swelling and not seeking treatment (like not going to A&E) including a lecture about how the swelling could block airways if it spreads down your neck. So I got a course of antibiotics prescribed there and then. The extraction is postponed until the swelling goes and I have an appointment booked to start the 4 week process of getting a false tooth.

The anti-biotic I’ve been prescribed is Metronidazole allegedly a strong one.

The dentist took ages checking drug interactions with the cocktail of drugs I live on!

When I looked it up I found it obviously used for dental infections but interestingly gynaecological infections, infected leg ulcers and pressure sores and Helicobacter pylori (a bacterium which causes inflammation and ulcers in the stomach).

But what caught my eye was this:

Anaerobic bacteria cause infections in areas of the body such as the gums, pelvic cavity, gut and bones because they do not need oxygen to grow and multiply. Metronidazole works by killing anaerobic bacteria in the body.

Now for the first time for nearly two years I awoke with no pain in the base of my spine and feeling less stiff. Coincidence or what?

It will be interesting to see if the symptoms I’ve suffered from return after I complete the course of antibiotics. Is this the catalyst I needed to put my Ankylosing Spondylitis back into remission? I pray it is.

I’m very cynical about the medical profession (in case you not noticed) in terms of treatment pathways that are regurgitated forever regardless of their clinical validity.

What I know about my body is that that I have an abnormal auto-immune system sending the wrong signal to my ligaments causing them to calcify and currently no drug other than the now banned Phenylbutazone worked for me.

But what if anaerobic bacteria carry the signal and Phenylbutazone unlike the other NASAIDs has the ability to kill anaerobic bacteria? Every one accepts Phenylbutazone works within the bone to stop inflammation but maybe in 1 in 1000,000 cases goes too far and destroys white blood cell production hence it’s withdrawal from human use.

All I know is that I am very sensitive to changes in my body and this side effect may be one I really want.

Oh by the way the swelling in my jaw has reduced as well LOL…

Sunday, 14 December 2008

Bad and good news...

I went to Manchester Dental Hospital yesterday, I know Saturday it wasn’t a mistake. LOL

I had a full dental x-ray and a long discussion with the Consultant in the Prosthodontics Department. He was very good.

I found the dental hospital OK though it’s not the most obvious place to spot in a steamed up bus but I’d memorised the number of roads past the elevated Mancunian Way from Google Earth. I didn’t rely on the images though as the pictures seem to be years out of date. Now there’s a thought for a new application (last pass) real time imaging from satellite to your mobile and a bleep when you are within 200m to tell you to stop the bus but never mind we have SatNav that did guide my best friend to parts of Manchester that I’ve never seen before when she set it for my postcode. But I digress.

The administration at the dental hospital was fast and pleasant and I was treated courteously. The full dental X-ray was an experience getting my head into it so that it could revolve was not easy. The assumption being that you can hold your back straight, something I can’t do but we got there, the light shining down my nose was essential to getting into position. Then I had to grip the film with my teeth and the nurse said imagine you’re sucking on something at which I had to laugh so we had to set up again. Still we got it done.

Then came the consultation and it was a mixture of bad and good news. The bone loss is massive such that having an implant could cause severe problems with my jaw. Quote the consultant “even if you win the lottery tonight and have unlimited funds I wouldn’t recommend it”. The severe peritonitis has taken its toll though some of the teeth whilst root exposed are as solid as a rock (that’s the good news).

Both my Ankylosing Spondylitis and my periodontal disease indicate problems with my immune system and are both most likely hereditary. Given the worsening effect of steroids I stood little chance not that that’s much consolation.

I need one tooth extracted and a further filling and he’s booked me two hospital hygienist appointments before he’ll see me again and probably discharge me back to my dentists care. We discussed the non-availability of sedation but there is no reason why the numbing injections used for general dental work can’t be used.

I must admit I felt much more comfortable and less anxious at the Hospital and the range of adjustment available in the chair made it a lot easier for me.

I went for a look at the Fender and Gibson guitars afterwards in the Piccadilly shop as I was in the City centre and then a quick drink in one of the pubs I know. I didn’t feel totally at ease though but I thought I’d use my all day travel card for a trip back later. So I went home and fed Tilley cat and myself.

I’d had to take my cross off for the x-ray and the radiologist had helped me put it back on but unfortunately the wrong way round (one side is diamond cut so it shines) so I though I’ll swap it around but try as I may I couldn’t do it and I ended up breaking the ring on the chain. That upset me a bit so I decided to hit the night out on the head.

I’ve lived in Manchester now over 10 weeks but I’ve not ventured out once for a night out. I’ve become a recluse and I can’t seem to break out of it. The damage done to me by the forced social exclusion of Uttoxeter has left me a shadow of my former self. OK losing the tooth hasn’t exactly helped my self esteem but I’ll get a false one now I know it’s the only option. I know however that doing that isn’t enough.

If you don’t have Ankylosing Spondylitis it’s very difficult to understand the total debilitating nature of the unrelenting pain when the disease is in an active phase as it is again with me. I know why it’s active and whilst I’ve “escaped” some of the stress that caused it to reactivate getting it to switch off again is not easy and the non-availability on the NHS of the drug (Phenylbutazone) that can stop it doesn’t help one bit.

I think I need more discussion with my GP …

Wednesday, 10 December 2008

More shit from the NHS…

I was discussing the other day how the NHS had become a business run by administrators for the benefit of administrators and that any concept of patient care had evaporated when the Labour Government set waiting lists targets.

Anyone with a modicum of intelligence realises that the overall measure is quality of care and result. The concept of a waiting list is an English disease invented by beaurocrats for the simple reason that there are not enough quality clinical resources available in the NHS.

Little did I expect to become a victim again so soon?

My GP had asked me to go back under the care of a rheumatologist, I agreed though what I actually want is a scan of my shoulder to see if there is broken off calcified ligament as the only treatment for that is surgery.

I had dismissed rheumatology as useless after they withdrew my prescription for phenylbutazone in 2002 when another administrator in the NHS decided a chance of 1 in 100,000 was too high a risk of me dying from the medication even though I’d been on the drug for over 5 years with no side effects whatsoever.

They don’t have an effective alternative so I have to stick the constant pain.

As my GP said I’d be going to North Manchester General Hospital less than half an hour direct bus ride away I agreed (thinking though I bet I’ll have problems getting a scan).

Today I get a hospital appointment sent to me but no not for Manchester but for Rochdale Infirmary at 08:30 am on 31 December 2008. I had to look up where Rochdale is I’ve never been there!

To get there involves 3 buses and a 2-hour journey.

So to make an 8:30 appointment I need to leave at 6:30 latest and pray there are no delays or missed connections.

That would be all if I was not already suffering from Ankylosing Spondylitis which is at it’s worse in the mornings such that I need a minimum of 2 hours to get my body in a fit state to travel. So it’s get up at 4:30 am – no way!

I’ve sent a suitable get stuffed email to cancel the appointment and I’ve raised an immediate complaint to PALS.

This is my second complaint to PALS and I only registered as a patient in Manchester on 21 October!

No doubt I’ll get a load of administrative waffle about PCT catchments area and waiting times and capacity but whatever they say I’ll never go to Rochdale even if it costs me my treatment though they aren’t going to get off without a lot of stick from me.

Now on the subject of my first complaint to PALS regular readers may be aware that I complained about refusal of dental treatment by Manchester Dental Hospital.

Today I got an amazing phone call on my mobile from the Consultant to explain the reasons he turned me down. Essentially he says that the Hospital has no facilities for sedation / pain relief so if I want periodontal treatment there it is no different to having it at my dentist.

I find this utterly incredible as treatment for severe periodontal disease includes surgical augmentation treatments such as soft tissue and bone grafts.

Perhaps Manchester Dental Hospital doesn’t do any of this in which case what is the point of this NHS facility?

Or do they do it without anaesthetic? In which case they are a tough lot here in Manchester.

He rather over stressed the fact that I could not get implants on the NHS.

He said that I could have an appointment with him or a colleague for a consultation on treatment options but that he stood by his refusal to treat me.

I’ve taken the appointment option, as it will give me the chance to get an answer to what is the point of the facility and further argue my case for treatment.

Interestingly he totally dismissed a link with my Ankylosing Spondylitis but then he is an English doctor and burdened with a professional jealousy of American research that says there is direct link. I know whom I believe and it isn’t him.

I think it’s again a denial by our wonderful NHS to avoid treatment costs.

Amazingly after this conversation the post arrived with an appointment for me at the Manchester Dental Hospital with the Prosthodontics Department.

If that was the appointment he referred to this was a magic trick worthy of Paul Daniels.

Now Prosthodontics is aesthetic and reconstructive dentistry which includes implants!

But obviously not really in our wonderful NHS.

The appointment was for 9:15 this Saturday but I phoned in and got it changed to 14:15 because of my Ankylosing Spondylitis.

This could be interesting, as I’ve now no idea of what they propose for me?

I sometimes wonder whether there is something on my NHS file that is causing all these problems though maybe I’m seeing conspiracy in the place of good old-fashioned administrative incompetence – time will tell

Tuesday, 9 December 2008

Update on Manchester PCT

The letter of 8 December in this blog has not been sent as my GP has received an email essentially saying that a standard pathway response letter was sent, as they hadn’t received the documents we submitted.

We had sent them the approval of surgery letter from South Staffordshire and the appeal letter that achieved it. Manchester PCT is now reviewing the documents.

I trust that common sense will prevail as I think it would be a gross waste of public funds to try to enforce the PCT current policy. I am confident that we have overwhelming legal arguments.

What I find surprising is that in the NHS that is always complaining about funding people can’t grasp that the transition method I advocate saves the Health Service money.

There is no clinical or financial reason not to move the care of transgender and transsexual people from the Gender Identity Clinics (that belong in the last century) and make it a GP managed condition with specialist services called in by agreement with the patient and only if the patient wants them.

A rigid psychiatrist controlled pathway is an affront to (if not a breach of) basic human rights and is now illegal but still the bigots argue it must continue.

It is an affront to a civilised society that an unaccountable, unelected Caucasian heterosexual group in the USA, with no personal experience of transition, can decide what or what isn’t a mental illness and we who are fortunate to live in the mother of democracy go along with it.

It is time make a major change in England starting in Manchester to abolish the mental illness classification and close the Gender Identity Clinics and consign both to the dustbin of history where they belong.

Monday, 8 December 2008

Letter to Manchester PCT

To: XXXX Resources Utilisation Support Officer
Manchester NHS Primary Care Trust Wythenshawe Manchester M23 9LH

Dear Ms XXXX,

My GP, Dr ZZZZ has given me a copy of your letter dated 25 November 2008.

I was disappointed and upset by the PCT’s response and I wish to appeal against this decision, as I believe that the refusal may be unlawful.

Further, I am sure that your insistence that I should follow the PCT’s accepted pathway and the suggestion that I should start the process with a referral by my GP to Manchester Psychosexual Services are unlawful.

The legal environment for treatment and the policy framework of the NHS for transsexual people has moved on significantly. The Gender Recognition Act 2005 and the Mental Capacity Act 2004 are both relevant to the PCT’s accepted pathway and their requirements should be reviewed before a legal challenge is made.

Finally, the PCT’s accepted pathway appears to be discriminatory in breach of The Sex Discrimination Act 1975 (Amendment) Regulations 2008 No 963.

Please advise me how I may formally appeal against the PCT’s decision.

Yours sincerely,

Maggie Fiona Fox

Sunday, 7 December 2008

Try Einstein’s General Theory of Relativity…

I am indebted to my friends across the Atlantic for exposing the evil game that the Psychiatrists in charge of the revision of the Bible of Psychiatry the Diagnostic And Statistical Manual of Mental Disorders are playing.

Their latest wheeze is to prepare the addition into DSM V the Body Integrity Identity Disorder (BIID). The severely disturbed individuals who experience a strong desire for the removal of healthy limbs have hijacked the wording of Gender Dysphoria to justify their perversion.

I’ve never met someone with this condition so I have to take the psychiatrists word for it that they do exist and that many of them see their condition as a sexual fetish.

The Psychiatrists who believe that true transsexuals are driven by perverted sexual fetish have of course seized on this to explain the desire for genital surgery.

This is the most ridiculous perverted unscientific rubbish spouted by a predominately Caucasian group of heterosexual males. I think standing and chanting “You are mad and you know you are” might make more sense.

The problem with Psychiatrists is that they have no grasp of the fundamentals of science or scientific evidence based proof. I doubt any of them have anything but the most basic scientific qualification.

They all need to stop and think and understand this:

Einstein visualized gravity as a manifestation of the curvature of space-time - the three space dimensions and a fourth time dimension.

Most of us cannot visualize a curvature of four dimensional space-time, so visualize a curved two dimensional rubber sheet. Placing a mass on the rubber sheet curves it downward like space-time curves in the presence of a mass. On such a rubber sheet a small mass can circle around the curvature produced by a large mass, just as planets orbit the Sun. Or a mass can roll straight downward just as an object falls to the Earth.

General relativity is based on the principle of equivalence. The two statements of this principle are logically equivalent; either statement can be used to prove the other.

Got it?

Now lets start with:

There are no absolutes in nature

Sex and gender are ranges not absolutes.

Sexuality is not defined by sex or gender.

No type of sexuality is a mental illness.

People can make a fetish out of anything.

The sex of the brain is determined in the womb.

The sex of the body is determined in the womb.

At birth the child knows if the sex of the brain and the body are congruent.

Then relativity steps in:

Exposure to human society determines when any incongruence is manifested.

An individual with mild incongruence may just exhibit cross gender characteristics.

No matter how hard a true transsexual tries to live with the incongruence there comes a time when they must change sex.


True transsexual people accepting the appallingly low standards of surgical transformation do everything they can to bring their bodies a close as possible into alignment with the sex of their mind.

I nearly typed the word soul there but if you do not believe in God then mind is probably an easier concept.

There are no certainties or absolutes in nature or in life.

Try reading and understanding Chaos Theory and Randomness.

Chaotic systems are unstable since they tend not to resist any outside disturbances but instead react in significant ways. In other words, they do not shrug off external influences but are partly navigated by them.

The falling leaf or the flapping flag - should be allowed to qualify as chaos, as long as they would continue to appear random even if any true randomness could somehow be eliminated.

What this means is when we make slight changes to a system at one time, and the later behaviour of the system may soon become completely different.

Got it?

What this means is that:

Every human being is unique

There is no valid psychiatric theory for the true transsexual

No psychiatrist can change a true transsexual

If you have psychiatrists at gatekeepers to surgery they will be told what they want to hear to gain access.

I’m getting bored now!

The point I make is that no psychiatric mental illness classification will stand up to any scientific evaluation.

All DSM IV and DSM V will prove is that the world ordered by these medical charlatans is false and bears no resemblance to the real world or put in language these fools can understand.

We’re not mad and we know we’re not!

If you want to read the articles that lead to this it’s at


Ms Maggie Fiona Fox has a B.Sc. (Eng) in Nuclear Engineering from Queen Mary College, University of London.

Thursday, 4 December 2008

A victory for the people…

Today the European Court of Human Rights voted unanimously to find HM Government guilty of another breach of human rights.

It is a sad reflection on today’s elected parliamentarians that this ever came about. Whatever happened to statesmen of principle? Oh I forgot the capitalists bought them.

Today’s victory for the people was to stop our state retaining the fingerprints and DNA records of people who have been arrested but not charged or convicted of any crime. The judges ruled that this retention of personal data could not be regarded as necessary in a democratic society.

Of course the Labour fascists who are in power couldn’t just accept this ruling.

Our Home Secretary, Jacqui Smith, stated "The existing law will remain in place while we carefully consider the judgement." and amazingly claims the DNA profile from people who are not convicted may sometimes be linked to later offences, so storing the details on the database is a proportionate response to tackling crime.

She should resign for that!

There of course may be other Government resignations to come.

The absolute right of a constituent to secrecy in dealings with a Member of Parliament has been breached by the recent search of Damian Green’s office in the Houses of Parliament allowed by the Speaker of the House without warrant.

It is a major breach of our Parliamentary Democracy. Damian Green’s arrest by the Police is a political act no matter how much Gordon Brown and the Speaker denies it.

It is an attack by HM Government establishment against the ordinary citizen for “whistle blowing” and exposing the hypocrisy and deceit by the people we elect to represent us.

Any conversation or document passed by a citizen to a Member of Parliament must be considered privileged information and not available to the police.

I trust that all true parliamentarians of whatever political party expose the corruption and deceit behind the police decision to take action. This exploit smells of the evil Baron Mandelson of Foy and Hartlepool and his form of bullying political actions. I sincerely hope investigations lead back to him.

At a time when capitalism is being exposed for it’s greed it is vital that the citizen’s rights and the privileges of our parliamentary democracy stay intact. Capitalism, which needs growth to survive maybe dying as we speak, but that article is for another day.

Today we should celebrate a small victory for the rights of the individual over the state – POWER TO THE PEOPLE…

Wednesday, 3 December 2008

Congestion Charge – No thank you

Well I cast my first vote in Manchester today against the congestion charge proposals. Yes I’m already on the electoral roll but I made sure I ticked the box not to reveal it to the mail marketers.

I’ve always had problems with grandiose schemes such as the one proposed.

Since the privatisation of the buses the term public transport just means mass transit but I think some people still think it means public owned and I simply don’t buy the concept of new Government investment fully benefiting the citizen when shareholders get a cut.

If the proposed investments are cost justified then the shareholder can fund them not the motorist.

I don’t drive anymore through choice but I object to anyone visiting me having to pay a charge and I can’t see a plus side to creating the world’s biggest charge zone for any one other than the revenue collectors.

I discussed it with the staff and customers at my hairdresser yesterday and no one supported the charge. A few weren’t going to bother to vote though so I gave them my women must always vote, people died to get us the vote speech. Seemed to go down OK LOL

Yesterday was my first snowy day in Manchester and I got caught out by thinking it’s sunny it’s not THAT cold but it was. I needed more layers. My flat is so warm and cosy that I forget the outside world may be in freeze your tits off mode.

Think I made a bit of progress today on some personal issues. We’ll do a new referral to Manchester Dental Hospital and it will be looked on favourably. I had my first positive conversation with people at Employment Support (evidently my records were at Hanley) and Manchester Housing Benefit.

Applied for NHS membership scheme at Manchester PCT I owe it to all transgender and transsexual people to do everything I can to stop current illegal practices. We simply cannot let the NHS think it’s above the law and treatment practices have to change as they are in breach of the Mental Capacity Act to say nothing of Sex Discrimination Act or Gender Recognition Act.

Lost my hot water supply to my taps yesterday evening due to a blockage in the pipe to the storage cylinder but after a sound resembling 100 toilets flushing at once it fixed itself. Unfortunately at 2:00 am from my sleep point of view.

Still as my friend and hairdresser says you must count your blessings and I do.

You know the world may seem a big place to some but the thought that both Joana and I sang "count your blessings" at Sunday School is a common memory between us. The only difference was she sang it in Ghana and I sang it in Wales!

For those of you who don’t share the inspiration of faith then here are the lyrics that inspired us both…

Lyrics for Count your Blessings Words by Johnson Oatman jr, 1897

Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done

When upon life's billows
You are tempest tossed
When you are discouraged
Thinking all is lost
Count your many blessings
Name them one by one
And it will surprise you
What the Lord has done

Are you ever burdened
With a load of care
Does the cross seem heavy
You are called to bear
Count your many blessings
Every doubt will fly
And you will be singing
As the days go by

When you look at others
With their lands and gold
Think that Christ has promised
You His wealth untold
Count your many blessings
Money cannot buy
Your reward in heaven
Nor your home on high

So, amid the conflict
Whether great or small
Do not be discouraged
God is over all
Count your many blessings
Angels will attend
Help and comfort give you
To your journey's end

Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your blessings
See what God has done
Count your blessings
Name them one by one
Count your many blessings
See what God has done

This expresses what I mean…

My Blessing Meaning by Lila* Star

~ A Blessing is the gift of connection

~ A blessing is a thought focused on the divine oneness of all people, animals, nature, creation

~ A blessing is an intentional moment taken out in time to be aware of unison to create a symbol in art word, prayer or thought, representing that unison with another

~ To bestow a blessing is to offer another the opening or opportunity to experience my awareness of him/her and therefore my awareness of all that is ~ Oneness

~ A blessing bestowed - its aim is to connect the receiver in awareness with the divine all that is, God, Higher Self, source or whatever you wish to call it with the giver of the blessing being the instrument of connection

~ A blessing is unconditional, often a random act of kindness inspired by an impulse from within ~ Divine Play Divine Connection expressed and shared

~ A blessing can be an artwork, blessing poem or simply a thought, a silent moment of reverence, a phone call spoken with intention to bless, seeing what is usually unseen, taking a moment out of time to focus on divine connection with another

Monday, 1 December 2008

And so here we go again…

Before I moved to Manchester my gender specialist warned me that some of the Manchester PCT could be “difficult”.

So I wasn’t surprised when my new Manchester GP said something very similar.

What I didn’t expect was that my legal status would again be totally ignored and that Manchester PCT would have a policy that is even more prejudiced and discriminatory that South Staffordshire PCT and that takes some doing! LOL

My GP wrote a lovely letter about me outlining my case to the Contracting and Commissioning Support Officer and clearly making a request for funding for surgery and enclosing the appeal document and the approval for surgery from Staffordshire PCT.

However what did we get back from the Resource Utilisation Support Officer but a standard you must go to Charing Cross Hospital letter in the same vein as Staffordshire PCT first attempt to fob me off.

It outlined the Manchester PCT pathway that starts with a referral to the Psychosexual Service at Manchester Mental Health and Social Care Trust.

Now I have known for some time that a senior member of Press For Change has been advising Manchester but this total sacrifice of true transsexuals on the altar of sexual deviancy is beyond belief.

For those that don’t know Psychosexual Services deal with amongst other things Violent Sexual Dysfunction, Paedophiles, Bestiality, Necrophilia, and Sadomasochistic Disorder.

What has a true transsexual in common with these sexual deviancies you may well ask?

Well there are two other Psychosexual Conditions that are less well publicised they are Homosexual Disorder and Self Mutilation Disorder.

Yes you read right they still treat homosexuals as mentally ill and they believe gender reassignment is a form of body mutilation.

Manchester PCT should be utterly ashamed of holding such a bigoted prejudicial position and must be taken to task on this.

There is no justification whatsoever in sending any true transsexual to see a Psychosexual Service.

This is what comes from grouping true transsexuals in with transvestic fetishists who are after a bit of “mild” feminisation through hormones but have no intention whatsoever of ever having surgery.

You won’t find any of this on an NHS web site but here is an excerpt from one that has yet to be pulled but rather gives the game away.

Symptoms common: These define all psychosexual disorders.

Patient unable to experience sexual arousal in normal conditions with adult members of the opposite sex.
Patient able to experience sexual arousal in abnormal conditions not natural to the sexual urges of healthy humans.
Patient may frequently be in denial of need for treatment. This is a classic symptom.
Patient may have persecution complex, believing that treatment is persecution for his difference.
Patient may be easily offended by descriptions or questions regarding his condition or activities.
Patient may have little or no contact with family members.

Homosexual Disorder

Patient is aroused by others of patient's own gender.
Patient may have unnatural attachments to one parent.
Patient may have inability to maintain relationships with others.
Patient may have need for multiple partners.
Patient may be aroused by sexual contact with strangers.
Patient may be aroused by contact with other's body fluids, urine, or excrement.
Patient may be aroused by consumption of other's body fluids, urine, or excrement.
Patient may be aroused by thoughts of cannibalism.
Patient may have fantasies of sexual control of others of patient's gender.
Patient may be aroused by encounters that risk infection or injury.
Patients suffering homosexual disorder also commonly suffer from other psychosexual sexual disorders.
Patient may have record of criminal sexual involving children or sodomy.

Taken from

The biggest “joke” in the letter in Manchester PCT was saying that the Psychosexual Service has been suspended due to lack of staff! Don’t tell me they are having difficulty finding qualified bigots to perpetuate these obnoxious myths of Gender Dysphoria and Psychosexual deviancy?

I’ll pursue my personal case and win through the courts if necessary but now I know the obnoxious policy facing true transsexuals starting out in Manchester I intend to give Manchester PCT some serious grief via

It is time for all true transsexuals to say enough is enough to the NHS and force them to cease their obnoxious practices.

Sunday, 23 November 2008

Welcome to the dual gendered world...

When Press For Change sold out transsexuals for their MBE awards and right to marry they helped create a bad Act of Parliament in terms of the Gender Recognition Act enshrining into English Law the mental illness of gender dysphoria and the role of the gender psychiatrist.

Part of this appalling sell out was to legitimize the so-called Real Life Test into a two-year qualification for a gender recognition certificate.

They boasted ah but there is no requirement for surgery though the application form asks the medical referee if surgery has not taken place to explain why not?

Now with their friends in HM Government they have gone further and created a dual gender whilst a transsexual person waits for the clock to show two years living in their true gender.

This is utterly appalling when you compare it to now.

At present when you declare by statutory declaration your change of name and you obtain a preliminary diagnosis from your GP you can get all your documents changed except one your birth certificate. Everyone in HM Government treats you as belonging to your acquired (true) gender and your start date of living in your acquired (true) gender is defined.

You get your passport and driving license immediately in your acquired (true) gender.

Two years later with two reports one from your GP and another from a Gender Specialist who most importantly need not be a psychiatrist and you get your new birth certificate.

Simple everyone understands it and most importantly it gives you full status in your acquired (true) gender in your place of work and society at large from day one.

That will all change with the new Identity Card system

Here are the relevant extracts:

Applications from those living a Dual Gendered Life

2.33 The representation of identity is a particularly complex and difficult issue for those who are moving from living in their birth gender to an acquired gender. In particular, those who are seeking to obtain a Gender Recognition Certificate need to be able to demonstrate that they are taking steps to live in their acquired gender as part of that process.

The Identity and Passport Service has engaged with a number of groups representing the transgender community before and after the passage of the Identity Cards Act. This has been helpful in understanding how we can best meet that community’s needs whilst ensuring the integrity of the National Identity Register.

2.34 Regulations 6,7,9,11,12 and 13 provide that those who are living a dual gendered life will, if they so choose, be able to apply for two identity cards relating to their unique entry in the National Identity Register. They can hold a National Identity Card which can be used for travel in one gender as well as an Identification Card which is not valid for travel but can be used to prove their identity in a second gender reliably and securely and reflects a different name, signature and photograph. This will be dependent on the provision of a recognized report from a registered medical practitioner or chartered psychologist confirming that the individual experiences gender dysphoria.

3.9 Where an individual has received a Gender Recognition Certificate, these provisions require this to be notified. Those individuals who had been issued with two cards as they were living a dual gendered life will be then be entitled to just one card in their acquired gender.

This notification will also ensure that the Identity and Passport Service can take appropriate steps to protect the gender history of the individual in accordance with the requirements of the Gender Recognition Act 2004.

Further in the actual Act we find the Register will record:

10.—(1) The following registrable facts about an individual are prescribed for the purposes of section 6(5)(b) of the 2006 Act (Issue etc. of ID cards) –
(a) the individual’s full name;
(b) the address of a place of residence of the individual;
(c) the individual’s birth gender and acquired gender;

1. In the case of all applicants –

(a) full name by which the applicant is commonly known for official purposes,

(b) any other names by which the applicant is or has been known for official purposes and details of the period during which the applicant is or has been so known ,

5. In the case of an application involving recording in the Register a change of gender that has been recognised by the Gender Recognition Panel, a gender recognition certificate or a birth or adoption certificate which records the new gender, in a form which contains details of the parents, or, as the case may be, adoptive parents.

6. In the case of an application by an individual who is dual gendered, involving recording in the Register a second gender, a report containing a diagnosis of gender dysphoria from a registered medical practitioner or a chartered psychologist practicing in the field of gender dysphoria.

Let me translate this for you in simple terms. HM Government considers your birth sex record to be absolute and will not ever allow a correction.

Your birth sex record and that you have changed sex is now easily available to all HM Government enforcement officers, Police, Security Services, and Army etc.

Worse this information will be shared with commercial organizations such as credit reference agencies and any European country you visit and the United States of America who started all this by insisting on biometric identification for visitors.

Prior to your acquisition of a Gender Recognition Certificate even if you change your name to a new one more appropriate to your acquired/true gender you get a passport and ID card in your birth gender.

This is a bigot’s charter for discrimination and will dramatically increase the persecution of true transsexual people.

I not sure where this dual gender idea has originated from but I suspect the transvestic fetish obsessed psychiatrists in the NHS had a big say and given the way some members of Press for Change boast about their Queer politics they had ready supporters.

This dual gender idea reeks of prejudice. HM Government think it’s OK to dress up at night to pursue your perversion in the gay bars but keep it away from work, families and children.

This is what comes from taking HM Government to the European Court of Human Rights winning the case but then accepting a compromise.

Press for Change and those others responsible for this should drop their 30 pieces of silver in the poor box and go find a suitable tree.

Friday, 21 November 2008

Fancy a good myth…

In recent years the Establishment has become very adept at spin weaving lies into believable myths.

HM Government loves to announce a problem in the morning and solve it in the afternoon hoping that this sort of distraction politics makes us all feel good about them.

Capitalism (or better called greed) by the Establishment continues to exploit ordinary people on a daily basis fed by a diet of myth and lie.

Here are some examples from just this week:


For the past eight years, the so-called Religious Right (Mainly white, "born again" evangelical Protestants, who adhere to a literal interpretation of the Bible) has enjoyed a warm reception at the centre of White House policy-making, and with the Republican coalition on Capitol Hill.

You are meant to believe that liberal America exists as a unified block, workers and academics, politicians and voters, the salt of the earth, keepers of the true flame, if not the grail.

Unfortunately seventy percent of President-Elect Barack Obama’s Black Support in California voted to ban gay marriage. Raised in the fundamental Protestantism of the black community churches, almost three quarters of the black voters in California indicated their hypocritical opposition to equal rights for all America.

The religious right looks pretty strong to me whilst equality for all is a long way off.


Examples of meaningless statistics:

In 17 years of power up to 1997, the Conservatives made net debt repayments in four years, totalling nearly £17bn. Since coming to power in 1997, Labour made net repayments in three years, totalling about £41bn. (A record!)

Praise be to Labour prudence, the Conservatives were rubbish.

In 1993, during the last recession, the Conservative government borrowed about £51bn. This year, Labour is expected to borrow about £64bn. (A record!)

All hail Conservative prudence, Labour are rubbish.

The riles of spin are:

Don't try to inform or enlighten - just generate as much heat as possible (with extra points at a time of public anxiety)

Ignore inflation - this makes it impossible to say how any quantity of pounds genuinely compares with another some years apart, but does allow many absurd, baseless comparisons

Assume that wealth doesn't matter, as if £10,000 owed by someone earning £5,000 a year is as serious a debt as it would be to Roman Abramovich

If we updated the 1993 deficit to a 2008-sized economy after 15 years of inflation, it would be over £110bn, compared with this year's projected deficit of about £64bn.

So lets just stop panicking please and get back to normal..


The privacy of millions of NHS patients will be critically undermined by a government plan to let medical researchers have access to personal files.

The prime minister and Department of Health want to give Britain's research institutes an advantage against overseas competitors by opening up more than 50m records, to identify patients who might be willing to take part in trials of new drugs and treatments.

They are consulting on a proposal that is buried in the small print of the NHS constitution that would permit researchers for the first time to write to patients who share a particular set of medical conditions to seek their participation in trials.

It would result in patients receiving a letter from a stranger who knew their most intimate medical secrets, which would be regarded by many as a breach of trust by doctors who are supposed to keep information confidential. It raises the prospect of a letter being opened by a relative, which could cause embarrassment.

This of course is not driven by any commercial considerations is it?

Calderdale PCT have asked that individual enquires about accessing GID services in Calderdale in the first instance be directed not to the PCT but to Jonny Glenn who is a mental health worker and liaison between the PCT and the local trans community.

The designation of a full time liaison worker is just one on the reforms of GID care in Calderdale. His remit is to advise on access to local services and referrals to consultants also to report to the PCT problems relating to the quality and access to care both pre and post op.

Now Calderdale PCT has been guilty of some of the most appalling abuse of transsexual people and this is a classic piece of establishment spin.

My former PCT introduced the requirement of two extra psychiatric assessments before you could be considered for a Gender Identity Clinic but Calderdale don’t even let you start with your own GP!

The problem is whilst the NHS thinks all transsexual people start as transvestic fetishists who one day enquire whether they can have some mild feminisation or possibly bring their cross dressing into the public area we will not get the changes we demand as true transsexuals in terms of changing our sex not just changing our gender!

I can’t close off this composite article without mentioning one on NHS pain relief.

People want to see tougher action taken against the NHS when it fails to help patients in pain, a poll suggests.

A Help the Aged survey of more than 1,000 people found nearly two-thirds thought hospitals should be penalised for poor "pain management".

I’m surprised it was so low in this sample. I saw my mother suffer from acute pain from stomach cancer that her indifferent GP failed to diagnose until it was inoperable.

I myself live with the debilitating pain of Ankylosing Spondylitis and no one cares when you say the painkillers don’t work so I know this to be institutionalised. Someone once said to me the best Doctor you can get is one who shares your condition because they wouldn’t put up with the second rate care our Health Service dishes out.

Go away take this it won’t do much but I’ve got my NHS fee and commission from the drug company so I don’t care seems to be the order of the day for most of the NHS.

Unless of course you believe the myths…

Wednesday, 19 November 2008

Back to a Consultant Rheumatologist…

I was discharged from Burton Hospital care when phenylbutazone was withdrawn from human use. Horses can still take it!

In many ways the withdrawal in 2002 of this the original NASAID specifically developed for the treatment of those diagnosed with Ankylosing Spondylitis is more a symptom of the NICE/NHS no risk policy than a valid science based decision..

It is alleged it causes aplastic anaemia though the evidence and statistics for this are kept confidential.

My research found a BMA article quoting an estimated risk of 2 deaths per 100,000 patients. This was done on a trace back from death certificates

“With phenylbutazone the rates varied from under 1 death per 100 000 for men aged under 65 years to 6 per 100 000 for women aged 65 and over. Small numbers precluded estimates for oxyphenbutazone in these subgroups, although a similar trend was suggested. No particular indication for treatment seems to carry a higher risk, the main concern being the use of these two drugs in elderly patients. WH Inman 1997”

Whilst on phenylbutazone I experienced no side effects and all my blood tests were clear so the major health gain in my view outweighed the risk.

When I started on phenylbutazone I couldn’t bend to pick up a milk bottle of the doorstep but 2 years later I’d passed my motorbike test and had ridden over the Alps much to the horror of my Consultant.

I managed to avoid the worst visual effects and whilst I have a hunched back I’ve not “set” in a position that makes me dependent on sticks or a Zimmer.

From 2002 to date I’ve taken Meloxicam that is not as effective and after the stress from my workplace my GP increased my dosage by 50%. Continued stress from my exclusion from work reactivated this chronic autoimmune disease that was in remission and my condition has worsened.

I’ve now lost over 50% movement in my right shoulder and as I’m now getting pain from my left shoulder I decided I really had to reveal the full extent of the problem to my new GP who is now referring me to a consultant rheumatologist at North Manchester Hospital. It’s just a half hour journey by bus so it’s not a problem to get there.

I’m dreading going back into Hospital again. If as my GP suspects it is detached calcified tissue that is the main problem in my right shoulder then only surgery can correct it and then not necessarily fully. I’ll be having a scan to see the cause but I fear I’m one of the rare cases where Ankylosing Spondylitis can spread away from the spine & ribs (both of them are totally fused in my case).

It is somewhat ironic that the evil people I encountered in my former workplace have undone the relief I got from changing gender as a result of controlling my AS.

Still I’ll do my best to fight it again.

Phenylbutazone is not banned on a global basis though if I go back on it I suspect I’ll feel the full wrath of our nanny NHS that always knows better than the patient but then I’m used to the NHS telling me I can’t do things.

My answer is always the same – YES I CAN – I think someone more famous than me uses that that mantra.

God Bless America…

Tuesday, 18 November 2008

The world would be a better place if women were in charge…

That was one of my Mum’s regular sayings when news of some war or atrocity came through. My Mum was a Christian feminist though she’d have never used that description of herself. She remains the most generous person I’ve ever met. I used to be embarrassed delivering my Mum’s home made rice pudding to ill people in our neighbourhood. I’d hang my head and mumble “my Mum sent you this” but what more can you give another human being than love and something to help them recover?

So today when I saw this picture of a girl from the Democratic Republic of Congo I remembered her words.

This picture symbolises the exploitation of the young female by men driven by greed.

The DR Congo has the third-largest population and the second-largest land area in sub-Saharan Africa. Life expectancy is just 43 years.

National child mortality rate at 205 per 1,000 live births; infant mortality at 109 per 1,000 live births (much higher in the eastern part of the country.

Despite the abundance of raw materials, the country's formal economy has virtually collapsed in the past few decades due to mismanagement, conflict, and instability.

Women remain marginalised in the DRC.

Amnesty International has shown that there is a direct link between discrimination against women in general and the violence inflicted on women in times of war.

Originally used as a weapon of war by soldiers to humiliate the enemy, sexual and gender-based violence is also perpetrated by civilians. The reason is twofold: sexual and gender-based violence is shrouded in silence and the perpetrators are seldom tried because of the prevailing climate of impunity.

Widows and rape survivors fare worse than the rest of the female population.

Women are also underrepresented in leadership positions, while customary law is generally highly discriminatory against women.

The 17,000-strong UN peacekeeping force - its largest mission anywhere - has so far failed to contain the self-inflicted calamities that periodically engulf Congo.

Much more must be done, and urgently too by the wealthier, stronger nations.

And as my Mum would say “put the women in charge”…

Monday, 17 November 2008

Will the real Maggie Fox please stand up…

When I first moved into my new flat I found an envelope addressed to me opened with a message “sorry – opened in error as we have same surname”. A bit later a guy knocked on the door to say his partner asked him to pop up and apologise regarding the letter.

That’s OK I said and by the way my first name is Maggie at which he burst out laughing and then told me his partners nickname was Maggie.

I got invited in for coffee a few days later and my disabled neighbour explained her second name was Margaret but she’d always been known as Maggie and then she told me there was another living in the district and they at first thought it was her but my accent proved otherwise. So that makes three Maggie Fox in this district of Manchester!

Anyway about 11:00 pm on Friday my door buzzer sounded and it was my neighbour Maggie. Her partner managed to lose their keys whilst visiting friends so as he was despatched to get them and she came in for coffee.

We got chatting and then realised it was now 1:00 am so we deduced he had stayed for a drink assuming her daughter would rescue her. Only snag was her mobile and therefore all telephone numbers were locked in the flat.

Maggie and I had had a pretty deep conversation none of which I’ll repeat here, as it is too personal so Maggie took the couch and I went to bed thinking we’ll sort all this out in morning.

At about 6:00 am Maggie’s partner is tapping on their front door and I hear him as the door is immediately below my bedroom window so I lean out of the window and tell him she is with me. He steps back and trips the security light from my next door neighbour

“Bloody Hell” he says “there’s a body under the (low privet) hedge”. I stare but can’t see anything, except maybe some feet, without my glasses. By the time I’ve got them on I see a young guy, just in his underpants, wrapped in a duvet staggering about. Maggie’s partner takes him into my neighbours as they had woken up with the security light tripping.

It turned out the lad in the duvet is the gay son of a lady that lives in the next street he’d had a row with his Mum and decided to go to his boyfriend’s flat in this street but never quite made it!

So we all had coffee and agreed the best option was to ring the Council to get them to drill out & replace the lock. It took nearly four hours for a council workman to turn up and then only after three reminders, which wasn’t very sensible as Maggie is disabled, and her medication was inside her flat.

We’ve agreed to both get a spare set of keys and hold them for each other.

So I’ve made a new friend with the same name living in the same block. Oh I’m now referred to as Maggs so everyone knows whom they are gossiping about! Fiona was rejected as too posh LOL

I feel I’ve arrived in this community now and I’ll take up the invite to the local community club when some live music is on but I’ll pass on the bingo…

Sunday, 16 November 2008

The name’s Bond, Jeminah Bond…

On Friday I spoke to JobCentre Plus to register for Employment and Support allowance. I had tried a week ago but their systems were down and so they insisted on posting me a claim form.

A photocopied form arrived Friday after I had chased them mid-week the first line of which read “the best way to make a claim is by phone”!

So I rang and the lady said it’d take roughly an hour. Now the previous week I’d telephoned in and my name & national insurance number did not match. I wasn’t totally surprised as whilst I’d informed most Government departments of my transition I knew there would be databases that weren’t updated and I’d only find them if I used that Department. So I had my records changed well so I thought.

Anyway we start the process name, address and date of birth and bang each time we hit an error message on the new software it would not allow her to proceed. So I disclose my transition and we try again with my former name still won’t move on.

National Insurance numbers are not unique due to the way they were issued so HM Government rely on a combination of NI number and birthday to create a unique identity but that still may not be unique. She gets a new error message so we break off with the promise of a call back.

I get a call back to say my record is classified as a National Sensitive Record used for “HM Government Spies and Famous People” (her words) so that curious staff can’t browse their records. You exist but are only visible to people with the necessary authorisation. So I have to fill in the form and mark it “National Sensitive Record” to get my benefit.

Now I did know about this National Sensitive Record system. It was used when I first transitioned to protect me until I got a Gender Recognition Certificate so all my records appeared as my new gender but my former records were still kept, as the change might not be judged permanent.

When I got my Gender Recognition Certificate I got a letter from the Inland Revenue giving me notification of a special department that would hold my records. Perhaps foolishly I thought OK that’s for old stuff for the future calculation of pension but maybe it’s not like that in reality. I’m going to do a fair bit of digging now as the Gender Recognition Act is meant to recognise and treat you as your acquired gender not the one allocated at birth.

I was asked in the first conversation if I objected to “full gender recognition certificate” being put on my records which I did object to as we are not a third gender and even HM Government is legally obliged to treat me as my new gender even I acquired it differently to just a physical examination at birth.

I mentioned this sequence to a friend of mine who had a copy of an enhanced Criminal Records Bureau check that mentioned her former name twice. There is a special section for transgender people a Confidential Checking Process for Transgender Applicants who do not wish to reveal details of their previous identity to the person who asked them to complete an application form for a CRB Disclosure.

Problem is that by definition this breaches the Gender Recognition Act still never mind eh?

Well yes actually, in the enthusiasm shown by transsexual people for the right to legal marriage and protected identity we let a lot of things slip.

We had HM Government beaten by the European Court of Human Rights but we conceded too much to a Caucasian male dominated Parliament concerned to protect the heterosexual male and what is laughingly called family values.

Personally I’d have made of list of those MPs who had sex with prostitutes especially the transsexual type ones and done a Cromwell “Gentlemen (after Army marches into Parliament) I believe now I have the majority.” LOL

Human Rights in England is the new Civil War.

It is important to remember that until the infamous judgement in the April Ashley case in 1970 you could get your original birth record altered and the old record destroyed but now we have a list as both your old record and the new one co-exist.

OK the list is protected now as a National Sensitive Record…

Monday, 10 November 2008

First thoughts as a new Mancunian…

Regular readers will know how much I love the city of Manchester and it’s people. It’s been my release valve since 2005 from the persecution and bigotry of Uttoxeter.

Let me say straight away there are some great people in Uttoxeter after all I moved there over 10 years ago to live with one of them.

Unfortunately there are a few determined bigots mostly from my former place of work who along with their friends and family sought to destroy me.

The wanted me to leave Uttoxeter, preferably in a wooden box, because of the affront to their sensibilities of my change of gender. They ensured I was daily reminded of this terrible crime against humanity by vicious verbal abuse and “missiles” thrown from passing cars. It was incessant and I was unable to walk the length of the High Street without some incident.

I was clever enough by not reacting, varying my routes and itinerary to avoid a major incident. It helped living right in the centre of the town within CCTV surveillance but enough of them as at the end of day they are still there living their squalid little lives – I’m not!

Quite a few people have asked me how I managed to get a secure tenancy City Of Manchester Council flat and the answer is know the law and tell the truth.

I applied in 2007 after my exclusion from work but just got the lowest priority however undeterred I bid for homes. A month or so ago I judged the situation in Uttoxeter to be getting too dangerous. I think some of the factory bigots blamed me for its future closure and were stoking up further resentment as I was on paid suspension including attendance bonus. The price for that being a good kicking that with my Ankylosing Spondylitis I probably wouldn’t have survived.

So I rang Northwood Housing and explained that when I first applied they could legally discriminate against me by not giving me the housing points for living under threat of violence but as of April 2008 HM Government had made it illegal to discriminate against someone who intended to undergo gender reassignment as regards Goods & Services so I now wanted those points.

I was close to a complete physical & mental breakdown as a result of the combined discrimination of my employer and it’s employees so delay was not an option. I’d not been able to bid on some flats because of a no pets rule and the rest were for over 60s. Suddenly one of the over 60s flats was a mistake it should have been over 50s and with cats allowed (but no dogs) I was invited to bid. I did so there and then and the following day I was offered it. Just coincidence of course.

A week later I viewed it. It’s a one bedroom flat in a block of modern terraced houses. I walked in took one look at the newly fitted galley kitchen and said I’ll take it but then it was oh dear for the bedroom and living room. Four layers of wallpaper painted lurid vinyl silk cream (it was too sickly to be magnolia). But two weeks later I moved in anyway!

Still the kitchen is brilliant and the bedroom almost exactly a month later is a lovely deep lilac thanks to the help of some good friends. As I write the living room is wallpaper stripped and looking a bit sad but in a few weeks it will be a lovely neutral beige.

I love my flat it’s in North East Manchester just a short bus ride up the Oldham Road from the city centre. My flat is first floor (common secure entrance with buzzer for 4 flats) with its own private secure entrance inside. It’s a cul-de-sac so there’s hardly any traffic and opposite me is a park so I wake up and look at trees and an open space – wonderful! The living room has a huge picture window so it’s light and airy and that too looks onto the park. The view from the kitchen at the back is like looking on to the back of Coronation Street – pure Manchester I love it.

I’ve got a Netto and an Iceland as my corner shops and a Lidl at the end of the high street but the real discovery was a Morrison’s supermarket at the end of my cul-de-sac and a few hundred yards up the canal towpath. So I can enjoy the ducks and geese on my shopping trips and if I’m lucky watch a canal boat navigate the locks. I just love the place and this was a move that didn’t just save my life but gives me hope of recovery.

I’ve got an NHS dentist at the end of my road so I went in mumbling I’ve not been for six years and now I’m on the Manchester Dental Hospital waiting list for some extensive dental work. That’s sort of good & bad really as I’m a scaredy cat as regards dentistry.

Best of all on the health side I’ve got a new young female GP and of course the relationship is now governed by my female birth certificate. I’ve got to wait for the Exceptional Funding Committee again but as South Staffordshire approved my surgery it’s just a formality really as it would be illegal now to disrupt my clinical pathway. I don’t anticipate problems like I had in Staffordshire but if we do we can use the same legal arguments to defeat any prejudiced bureaucrat.

My GP made me laugh today when she said the exceptional funding committee was exceptionally slow so I expect my surgery will be in the New Year. She had no hesitation though in supplying me the requisite sick notes to be able to claim Employment Support (that’s the new name for Incapacity Benefit). I’m going to have another go at Disability Living Allowance too as my medical condition has significantly worsened since my last application.

Finally though the greatest part of this move is the people of Manchester who just simply treat me as what I am a disabled old lady. I get no abuse and I get lots of smiles and I even got seriously chatted up the other day by a rather handsome mixed race Asian man. I’ve got a long way to go on the road to recovery from the damage done to my health by the bigots of my former workplace but here everyone without exception has made me feel welcome and I’m very proud to say I’m now a Mancunian too.

Sunday, 9 November 2008

WARNING GIRES information is not always legally sound

The Department of Health has authorised the publication of "A guide to trans service users' rights", the sixth in the series of booklets that it has commissioned the Gender Identity Research and Education (GIRES) to develop.

The new booklet is available online at:

GIRES is currently working on the next two booklets, which provide guidance on surgery for trans men and for trans women.

Readers need to be aware that these booklets are produced against a background of how the Department of Health want to protect the National Health Service discriminatory practices as regards true transsexuals.

Firstly none of them mention the Mental Capacity Act that renders all current procedures and processes illegal.

Secondly the Department of Health has continually tried to undermine the Gender Recognition Act.

I have letters from the Department of Health that illustrate the depth of the prejudice against transsexual people who they believe to be mentally ill sexual deviants.

This is from the new publication with my comments:

GIRES Booklet in italics:

1.3 Would having a Gender Recognition Certificate make any difference to my treatment?

This may make staff more aware of using correct names and titles and more willing to give you appropriate accommodation in a hospital ward.

This is an incredibly condescending sentence as if the law doesn’t exist!

It entitles you to special protection against information about your trans status or history being passed on to others (see Privacy versus disclosure at section

1.4) but it should not make any difference to your medical treatment.

Wrong, Wrong, Wrong!

In medical terms you, as a trans service user, may well have mixed sex characteristics. Your ongoing medical care must be provided in accordance with these, REGARDLESS of your legal gender status, e.g. trans women may still need prostate gland checks, while trans men do not. Both trans men and trans women may benefit from breast checks as they get older.

Now this is classic Department of Health spin the second part is correct in the sense that medical science isn’t good enough to remove and change every part of your body BUT a Gender Recognition Certificate means that you cannot legally be forced into psychiatric assessments or attending a Gender Identity Clinic.

Most importantly it gives you the absolute legal right to the surgeon of your choice at the hospital of your choice.

The Department of Health lawyers know all this they just don’t want you have the same rights as “normal” people.

When dealing with any part of the Department of Health or Health Service never lose sight of the fact that they don’t want to treat you as they consider it all self inflicted lifestyle changes brought about by mental illness through sexual deviancy.

Think that’s an exaggeration then look at DSM IV the American Psychiatrists manual that sets the diagnosis and treatment for transsexuals here in England!

The problem is that too many people in the medical establishment think that’s correct and cling to it. Remember they hated giving up the mental illness classification for homosexual people and would love to have it back.

It would be so much better if people like GIRES who are genuinely trying to improve things for transsexuals stopped accepting the status quo and became a militant organisation demanding real change.

Perhaps they should become gender guerrilla girls too…

Saturday, 8 November 2008

Think you're above the law - think again...

This story caught my attention for a variety of reasons.

The General Teaching Council for England has ruled that a former Education, Training and Employment Manager at Brighton & Hove City Council was guilty of discriminating against a teacher because she was transgender.

The important message to all true transsexual or transgender people is never give up and never accept defeat.

This lady has demonstrated no matter how much an employer tries to use it's substantial resources to justify discrimination the truth will come out.

I'm proud she decided to stand up and show that bigotry is evil and that transphobia can be defeated.

Well done Natasha Thoday you are a real woman...

Here are the links:

I trust some of my readers will learn the lesson from this story...

Wednesday, 5 November 2008

Progress? You be the judge...

Christine Burns formerly of Press For Change has produced a document for the NHS that tries to justify illegal treatment regimes on the basis of care.

The Mental Capacity Act implications are ignored which is no surprise and the crucial Gender Recognition Act that changes the legal basis of the recipient in terms of their entitlement to surgery without preconditions is glossed over.

See my blog entry of 1 November 2008 for a simple pathway that removes the prejudicial treatment by NHS psychiatrists.

It would be so much better if the NHS she describes were real not spin.

There are some good things in the document but it implies throughout that you are transsexual for life, which is not the legal case.

Here is an example from this work:

Much of the sensitivity about terms and who is applying them is rooted in past tensions between trans people and previous generations of clinicians. In the UK, clinical involvement for people expressing gender identities at variance from their physical sex has been led for more than 40 years by psychiatrists, with approaches that were originally grounded in theories about sexual deviancy and mental disorder.

In other countries clinical involvement has been led from different disciplines such as endocrinology or by gynecologists and urologists.

Nowadays even psychiatrists are at pains to stress that the inclusion of transsexual terminology in mental health categories reflects the historical demand for a formal diagnosis on which to base treatment, and the widely appreciated need for talking therapies to support people through taking an immense step in their lives, often in the face of disapproval among those they know.

It cannot be overemphasised that being trans is not a mental illness.

The problem is that this is not in the past this is NHS spin.

The reality is the same Gender Identity Clinics and the same abusive, demeaning, degrading practices exist today.

You can get a copy of Christine Burns work for the NHS at this link:

I am sure Christine Burns means well with her work but it ignores the rather obvious need to abolish the Gender Identity Clinics and remove the mental illness classification for ever.

Transition for the true transsexual is a process that any GP could assist in managing simply by calling down the services the person transitioning requests.

That appears to be too simple for the medical professionals to grasp, as they cannot seem to accept that being a true transsexual is a self diagnosed condition.

It is a birth defect where the brain sex is different to the anatomical sex.

Notice I deliberately use the word sex not gender as talking about gender is not the same issue.

Fine words are not enough…

Transgender Europe now headed by good King Stephen thinks with the American Psychiatric Association based on a fair unbiased review of current knowledge can result in a DSM-V that can move society toward a more rational and humane understanding of transgender people.

HA, HA you can’t negotiate with psychiatrists that make a good living out of the bogus mental illness classification of the true transsexual.

They acknowledge that the review process will go on for several years and the APA welcomes suggestions from laypersons as well as mental health professionals in this process.


It is an infringement of Human Rights to declare someone mentally ill and force him or her into psychiatric treatments because they have a birth defect.

What Transgender Europe should do is take the Department of Health to the European Court of Human Rights to force the National Health Service to cease it’s current unscientific demeaning and degrading practices. It is a sick joke by Caucasian males heterosexuals to invent a “real life test” that requires someone to spend months in drag before an effective body changing hormone regime can be obtained.

It is obscene that children who know they have the birth defect of a true transsexual have to go through body changing puberty before they get treatment when safe puberty delaying drugs are available.

This is Transgender Europe Press Release that good King Stephen must be pleased with…

Despite much scientific controversy, forms of transgender continue to be listed in the DSM IV of the American Psychological Association (APA), just as homosexuality once was, and in the ICD-10 of the World Health Organization (WHO) as psychological disorders. DSM and ICD are guideline manuals used in healthcare to standardise the definitions of what constitutes mental illness. Transgender Europe (TGEU) emphatically refuses this pathologisation and will assist the next reformulation of the DSM in a critical manner.”

We, the Steering Committee, are firmly of the conviction that the stigmatization, which in part is grounded in the mistaken assumption that gender variance is prima facie a medical disorder, is discriminatory. Furthermore, we cite the Yogyakarta Principles, Article 18:

No person may be forced to undergo any form of medical or psychological treatment, procedure, testing or be confined to a medical facility, based on sexual orientation or gender identity. Notwithstanding any classifications to the contrary, a person’s sexual orientation and gender identity are not, in and of themselves, medical conditions and are not to be treated, cured or suppressed.

A number of national governments and international bodies have passed resolutions in support of these principles: the European Parliament, the Council of Europe, Organization of American States.

Any revision of the DSM and the ICD must be carried out with full compliance to the Yogyakarta Principles.

Vienna, Nov 1st 2008 The Steering Committee of Transgender Europe

Sorry guys that’s not good enough you know it’s illegal get us an unreserved court judgment now as resolutions are not law but then good King Stephen knows that…

Saturday, 1 November 2008

“The PCT is pleased to be able to confirm that you may proceed with surgery at the Sussex Nuffield Hospital.”

A simple sentence that has transformed my life and will make it easier for every true transsexual to obtain the treatment of his or her choice in the future.

This is a major result achieved without having to resort to the courts that confirms some vital legal and medical facts.

It has been achieved against a culture of prejudice that regrettably still permeates the National Health Service and the Department of Health.

There is still a lot of work to be done before the war to remove the bogus mental illness classification is won but this is a victory so as Montgomery said after Al-Alamein “Ring out the Bells”!

These are the important points I’ve established:

#1 You do not need anyone’s permission or approval to change gender. You just do it.

#2 Change your name by statutory declaration immediately you transition. This is vital as it is the start date to get a gender recognition certificate.

#3 See your GP on the same day who must confirm an initial diagnosis of “gender dysphoria” and arrange an appointment with a local psychiatrist.

#4 One and only one single hour appointment is all that is required with a general clinical psychiatrist to establish proof that you have no mental illnesses. Get yourself discharged back to GP care not an NHS Gender Clinic.

#5 Via your GP ask your PCT to fund your referral to the London Gender Clinic run by Dr Richard Curtis. If they refuse then fund this your self. Believe me it’s worth it, as you will avoid all problems of the NHS system that is designed for gender confused transvestic fetishists.

#6 Obtain NHS prescription for hormone and anti-androgen therapy from your GP on a joint care basis with Dr Richard Curtis of the London Gender Clinic.

#7 As soon as it is 24 months from your statutory declaration of change of name apply for a gender recognition certificate.

#8 As soon as you have a gender recognition certificate and a new birth certificate in your true gender apply for NHS funding for surgery for correction of birth defect by a surgeon of your choice in a hospital of your choice. Warning do not pick Charing Cross as they will insist on you going to their Gender Identity Clinic who ignore #1 to #7.

#9 Be prepared to use the law to get your funding. The Sex Discrimination Act, The Gender Recognition Act, The Mental Capacity Act and the Human Rights Act are now in your favour as you are legally of the gender that you have transitioned to and the NHS cannot apply their arbitrary unscientific prejudiced rules that they get away with those who accept referral to the Gender Identity Clinics prior to transition.

#10 Enjoy the fact that that you have the surgeon of your choice at the hospital of your choice and the fact that you are not and never were mentally ill.

Of course none of this will protect you from the evil prejudice you will encounter from some members of the public whilst they either know your former gender or guess it. After three years of hormone therapy I have no problems other than the determined bigots of my workplace and I have the law on my side on that one too.

In earlier entries I’ve reproduced the letters and legal arguments we’ve used to get this result. They are valid for everyone with a gender recognition certificate.

I don’t feel the need to write much more in blog form on this subject as I ceased to be a transsexual the day I got my gender recognition certificate so I will bow out and let others fight on for our rights.

Unless of course I’m persuaded otherwise…. LOL

The lesson here is keep your faith and justice will prevail.

God bless you all.

Monday, 22 September 2008

Go disrupt the evil Dr Zuker...

Personally I don't think this is strong enough as the way homosexuals removed their mental illness categorization was by direct action and disruption. This man is evil and deserves to be thrown out of England.

Do what you can...

Demonstration against Ken Zucker (the man who proposes reparative therapy for gender variant kids)

October 1st, 8.30am, The Royal Society of Medicine, 1 Wimpole Street,London W1G 0AE

The demo is organised in cooperation with the Metropolitan Police and will take place outside the Royal Society of Medicine

(Just behind Debenhams/House of Fraser, Nearest tubes are Bond Street and Oxford Circus)

Please come if you can.

Natacha Kennedy (Official Organiser)

This is an important demonstration and it is vital that you attend if you are able. As it is on a Wednesday at 8.30am there are quite a few people who would like to come but are unable to make it because of work commitments.

It is important to come for two reasons; show opposition to Ken Zucker's 'treatments' being used on children and oppose the nature of the Royal Society of Medicine's highly political conference on trans identified adolescents.

Ken Zucker is a psychologist (not a psychiatrist) at the Clarke Institute in Toronto. He promotes his so-called "reparative therapy" which is little more than torture for gender variant(GV) children and trans identified adolescents. It is suggested by research that around 75% of born male bodied children who manifest GV behaviour (sissy boys) do not become trans adults, but it is worth noting that this research has never considered born female bodied GV children (tomboys). Yet he promotes his 'therapy' for all GV children and trans identified adolescents.

Ken Zucker also proposes to use "reparative therapy" on these young people, regardless of their parents' wish or the young person's legal right to access this treatment.

In the UK, a young person (YP) has a variety of ways in which they can request treatment and give full consent to it; with their parent's approval, and if required, regardless of their parents' wishes i.e. when the YP is 16 (under the Family law Act) or even younger when they are 'Gillick Competent 'which requires far greater competence than is every required of an adult accessing treatment, i.e. they understand the nature of the treatment, what it does, what it doesn't do, all the side effects and other consequences, and the health risks they are taking.

For the 25% who will become trans identified (and the unknown proportion of the rest who are actually suppressing it or hiding it as a result of bullying, parental pressure etc.), the results of treatments like Zucker's can be catastrophic.

Victims of this therapy are left traumatised for a very long time afterwards. They experience frequent feelings of depression and suicidal tendencies. This is not surprising since this treatment involves constantly telling these YPs that they are
wrong, everything they do, are or feel is bad, and clothes, toys and other possessions relating to their preferred gender are taken away and they are punished for engaging in activities which reflect their own true identities. They are also rewarded for any behaviour which reflects the gender their parents wish them to be.

This is just crude psychological and emotional bullying and exertion of power over those unable to defend themselves.

This treatment is not just wrong, but has no basis in psychological theory and is considered by many psychologists and psychiatrists to be the equivalent of voodoo or unproven 'alternative' medicine.

It is also wrong because it is a response to the wishes of the many homo & trans phobic parents who demand their child is 'normal', rather than to the needs of the YP. Although parental wishes may be taken into account, when a YP is under 16, the YP is the patient and any doctor is bound by ethics to consider the YP's needs as paramount. We do not believe this is happening in Zucker's clinic.

It would also appear that this therapy is related to some of the ideas of the extreme Christian right-wing political lobby in the United States which has sponsored this type of therapy to "treat" homosexuality.

This therapy is designed to pander to parents who would like to have a 'normal' child. Children are, however, not a fashion accessory.

We believe that this therapy violates the UN Convention on the Rights of the Child, and the European Convention on Human Rights.

Secondly, the Royal Society of Medicine describes itself as an "apolitical organisation", yet this conference seems to have been set up by its organisers in the most political way possible. By inviting Zucker to contribute regarding his 'therapies' and not allowing any representation from anyone to oppose him this is clearly a political move. Even Mermaids, the organisation for trans children & young people,and their parents has not been allowed to contribute.

Given Zucker's highly controversial place on the DSM-5 committee on GID this alone is
an extremely political act.

The only likely opposition is from Professor Peggy Cohen-Kettenis, VU University Medical Center, Amsterdam but she is on the same DSM-5 committee as Zucker - can they really give a fair view point between them. And there is no legal overview given, Professor of Law, at Manchester Metropolitan University; Dr Stephen Whittle from Press for Change who has written on the legal issues (see *** below) has not been invited.

Furthermore, the welcome address is being given by Dr John Scadding,Dean of the Royal Society of Medicine and Professor Philip Steer,President Elect, Section of Obstetrics and Gynaecology, RSM is reviewing questions of prognosis and long term follow up.

However it appears to go further than this. The conference seems to have been set up to push a UK-based treatment protocol for GV children and trans identified adolescents.

This protocol will not involve the use of hormone blockers to delay the onset of puberty.

Puberty can not only be extremely distressing for some GV YP's particularly those that grow up to be trans adults. Furthermore, as legal research has shown the refusal to consider this treatment means that trans adolescents develop secondary sexual characteristics, such as beard or breast growth that ultimately lead to major health interventions, in the future, which could have been avoided.

In this sense it seems that it is also particularly politically motivated and as such as large presence outside is vital to make our feelings known and to distribute leaflets to delegates to make sure they understand the other side of the story.

It is rather ironic, but Professor Melissa Hines, Faculty of Social and Political Sciences, Cambridge will be contributing information on Endocrine influences. She is the wife of Professor Richard Green, who has himself been so perturbed by this conference that he has arranged an alternative conference; Conference on Medical Care for Gender Variant Teenagers, on September 28th at Imperial College in London, to challenge it. For further details go to:

Demonstration against Ken Zucker (the man who proposes reparative therapy for gender variant kids)

October 1st, 8.30am, The Royal Society of Medicine, 1 Wimpole Street,London W1G 0AE

Please Join Us

Natacha Kennedy