I suppose intense total love affairs are always doomed if that is what it was though I can’t find the right word to describe the love I’ve got.
I’ve cried every day, not superficial tears, but deep soul wrenching tears that have cut me to the core and I can’t handle it.
Some of my friends think I’m just running away as I often do from problems but this has not been like that.
I love this person more than anyone I’ve ever met but I have to end this now to save them incredible future pain and grief with their family and friends.
If I had let this relationship develop into us becoming an item the problems we would have faced would have destroyed us both anyway.
So I had to decide take the pain now or later for both of us.
When you love someone as deeply then it’s very hard to do this especially as I have to rule out the friends / former lovers bit too.
I just can’t handle anything other than a clean break.
I will pray for forgiveness for what I’ve done and for my love lost…